This Is for you

It'll be the last day of my internship stint tomorrow and I'm not sure what should I be feeling.
The work here had been a rather enlightening experience. I mean, I work in a SME. Its one that is run by a family. You get to understand the hierachy and everyone else is just everyone else!
I remember my first day. I went to Clementi and waited for bus 78. And I waited and waited and waited. And just when Im getting all panicky that the bus driver had gone on a strike, the bus came. Alighting, I met this guy at the gate to the office. My age. I went: "Are you 'ye4' feng?" He went: " huh" and he mumbled something that I didn't catch (and then I pretended that I heard what he said 'cause its weird to ask someone who you are meeting for the 'first' time to repeat themselves). I assumed that he must be the other intern. Apparently, we took the same bus but alighted at different stops.
Up to the office. The previous interview was conducted in English. It was a pleasent surprise that the Personnel Manager spoke to us in Chinese. I looked at this person sitting beside me and wondered if he was comfortable in the language. Friends know that I speak Chinese all the time. But believe me. If work did really call for it and if this weird guy couldn't speak Chinese, I would have stuck to the language that I use purely for Business purposes. He replied to all questions in Chinese. I found it funny that his voice always sound a little husky at first. Just like he wasn't prepared to speak to anyone and someone caught him off guard. I smile=) (ok. I admit that I was going to LAUGH if only the PM wasnt around) oh right. AND then he told the PM his name is 'yi feng'. The 'ye' pronounced as 'yee' I guess. I was like 'oops. shit. should not have asked for his name just now. he didnt hear anything he didnt hear anything'. I was very amused.
I was very lost at work at first. Like I was thrown there and expected to know what I should do and what I was to look out for during my Internal Audit. Hundreds of files and I have no idea where do I start. I secretly believe that yf must be as lost as me just that I make it known and he didn't.
The work started. Our time splited between office and warehouse. And that was the time when we met all the very simple and innocent friends at work. This warehouse admin Jennifer who took care of us like her kids, buying breakfast for us, giving me oilment for mosquito bites, herbal tea when I was falling sick, joking with us and entertaining us (I still think its the other way round though. She enjoys making fun of us. Like how yf came to be known as Liu De Hua). She is a very direct and easy-going person. So many jokes and so many memories in the little warehouse office. Im quite sure I blushed a few times and turned red like a lobster from an overdosage of laughter.
Along the way, the colleagues rendered their help for which I am very grateful. Always so patient with me. haha.. calling me a xiao mei mei. Repeating instructions and never ever raising their voice at me.
How I came to join dance was this:
I had this GREAT plan to improve my hand eye leg coordination problem and I decided to convince Miao to accompany me for a dance class. No real idea of what particular dance to join. Just wanted something easy to pick up, not too expensive and something I dared to learn (well, I shld probably learn belly dancing but then again, I don't dare to). At the pantry at lunch during the first week of work, i overheard a phone call. omg. This quiet guy sitting beside me dances! AND he was the Chairperson. haha.. all deed done. No more internet search no more not knowing what to do and no more fickle-mindedness. I mean, after asking him so much, how could I not join and still face him at work for the next 11 weeks? And so I made sure I convince Miao. haha.. Glad was interested all along. So yup! Head straight for dance after work on every wednesday and saturday.
We talked. I would have withered if I have no one to talk to. So I bugged and probed and irritated.. You get my point. And then this person had the nerves to tell me I'm like his mom. Personality, he added. Lucky him.
Childhood, the flying fox, dad, mom, brother, cousins, ancesters, friends, dance, food, malaysia, singapore, studies, france eh. Mary Poppins? Hey, there are many things to talk about and my. When he talks (which is rare), he talks. I know more about him than he knows me. haha.. as he said, I'm 'very 8' (aka nosey). The photo and video viewing on his labtop had been entertaining. But he is probably the worst person on earth to be asked to be a tour guide. He doesnt describe anything! haha..
I remember that at times when work was piling up and im suffocating to meet the deadlines, he will offer to help. Thanks loads. I have said that I want to treat you, but never got the chance yea. So a thanks should suffice=)
I want to declare that I have a new weird friend. By my standard. He's weird. haha.. the whole world can be talking and he will look upon and smile. YES. He SMILES. You ask to dump some rice/food on his plate, he'll ask you to give it to him after you are done with it. You ask him: hey, how was yesterday's event? He'll think for 5 seconds before saying *in anticipation of what he is going to say* "你想要知道什么？" You ask him to walk slower, he'll say "我走太快你讲，我走太慢你也讲。女人啊~" Your phone rang and no one is speaking into the phone. You realise that he is the one playing with the intercom. While people uses '做么' and '干嘛', he uses '什么'. When you are looking for the supervisor (who had left already), he will tell you that the supervisor is in the conference room. When I knock my head against the phone. He LAUGHED.
He probably doesnt realise that he is quite an entertainer. Look at him and you will laugh. Its even more of a surprise that he noticed that the first time we met was not the first day of work, but during the day of the interview. He was leaving and I was waiting at the reception area.
I once said: I'm very bad with names.
He replied: But will you forget a THREE MONTH long friend's name? 3 months is a long time.
I said: I might.
Hey buddy. Even though you will not read this *phew~*
I just want to say that I will remember your name yea. Confirm plus chop.
I am lucky that I have a friend to accompany me through this 12weeks here. You made a few of my days and probably spoiled some (not that you know). And as your personality is as it is, I bet we'll lose touch after tomorrow. I'll see you in school... in August 2009. This post is dedicated to you. Do take care!

Realisation

The door is closing. Enter or get locked out.
=the opportunities in life=
The worst is not knowing if you should get it or just forget it.

The World is my Playground. the Dancefloor is Yours.

When Im in a good mood, all high and happy over something, I can find a million things to do except blogging. Headache from the loud music.
My first exposure to dance competitions. Of course. Before you laugh, Im NOT participating. So yup. keep your giggle to yourself=p Its called Merlion International Dancesport Championship 2008, held at an ulu-ated place, Orchid Country Club. A splash of colours, pink, orange, red, or anything that captures the attention. Cha Cha, Jive, Samba and Rumba. Half way through, I got distracted by my headache so I pretty much didn't notice alot of things. haha.. but then again, was amazed at how lively people can be, how confident they are of their moves, their body, how smooth, how polished. I looked upon as a bystander, basking in the joyous music, watching, with admiration=)
As much as I admire the people on the dancefloor, 'i'll never be like them' I thought. haha.. not that i don't WANT. Its just against my nature to want to be in the lime light.
You look at their costumes.
You look at their figure.
You look at their faces.
you look at their moves.
And you feel the mood. Its lurking somewhere there. This happiness waiting to be shared with everyone else. The moves. So fast. So defined. So Sensual. haha.. I mean, such dances are supposed to be a bit 扇情right?
The amateurs were really impressive. Under 21 category. So young yet so good. I reflected upon myself. Jacks of only a few trades and master of none. haha.. well. back to dance. I remember people flowing across the dancefloor, splits, turns. There is just so much room for anyone to do anything.
The only thing that bothered me was this. Kids, adorable ones. Some are still innocent. Some looked well.. sultry. At the age of like.. 7? 8? I don't know. Just a personal thought. But its a messy world. Adults might know better. But kids growing into adolescent. hmm.. well, well.
It was a good experience. I kinda figured out why some of us look weird dancing. Its the hands. haha.. concentrating on the feets, we missed the fact that it is in fact, the hands that completes the look of the dance. hmm.. maybe.
Its your playground. Its your friends. Its your love. Smile. The dance of love.

Recently I have found myself uncertain of what should I make of things. My life is revolving much too close about a center. Is there a distance? An orbit will be good. Ouch. Eyes away.

The last dance

Hi kid. feeling like crap now that im catching a flu bug. sigh. after playing during the weekends, now im in the cui state eh.
anw, something funny thing that i want to mention is this:
on saturday, i was damn tired. so before a dance, i told daniel that HE gotta wake ME up first. and so the dance began. during the second 'change of hands', i accidentally shoved him very hard in his chest with my shoulders. like u know, i didnt move to the side enuf. haha.. he was like: "IM awake alr!!"then right after that, 2 seconds later during the penguin step, i stepped him very hard with my heels. and then he yelpped: "IM VERY AWAKE ALR!!"
haha.. funny right? i was laughing so so so hard that i felt so awake after that. like he was alr awake to start off with. and I kept on attempting to wake him up.
Went for Pinkie's 21st bday party after dance. The rain kinda hindered with the bbq but there was already enough food around. Plus we did the bbq-ing indoors after that. haha.. of course i did alot of the actual bbq-ing. Love to do it actually. Other than the fact that it gets you all sticky and oily=) Gotta know Grace's Secondary school friend, Amelia, who is really a nice and easy-to-talk-to person=) She was telling me about her great plans of backpacking once a year. this is like whoa. Words into action. She went to cambodia and vietnam last year, and taiwan this year. COOL. haha.. The meddy frens who I went to Taiwan with were there as well! haha... haven seen them in quite a while. Yin Xia is still so so so funny. Chinese Missy. haha.. she cannot bbq marshmellows and she cannot use the camera! haha.. She is really super cute and funny. A pity bra-bra and Yi Jing were not there. Oooo.. and I still love to make fun of Grace;s little brother. The same one whom I played toy sword with last time! Just that he is so much taller and mature already. Sobs. what happened to the little kid who fought with me?!
Anyway, Happy Bday Pinkie! Make some time for me=D Went to the pru chalet for 30seconds? stupid da bai. he told me he gg. then in the end, when i reach thr, almost all the ppl there are those that i have nv seen before. so i quickly siam with jia ying and tc=p
Was in a disturby mood last night. Its a new word: disturby. It means 'who-ask-you-to-be-here-for-me-to-disturb'. haha.. I told Pj that: Im in Love...
...
with my bed.
=D

Mude.

ich bin mude.

Had fun over the past few days. And the result? Im feeling IT again. The ear- itching-scratch-no-use-syndrome. The precursor to a full blown flu. haha.. but am trying to contain the virus and kill it before maturity=p

Sunday was a super mad rush! From tuition, I rushed to the dance studio to get something from Glad and then rushed down to meet TC at bugis to buy a present. There was dance class on Sunday from 130~4. I stepped in at 330. As I walk, people started asking: how come u are so late? I was like: 我是来拿东西的. Then yf gave me a stunned and the why-are-you-here-face. That was kinda funny. And so the story goes. When I was leaving the studio, people started asking: 要走了啊？为什么这么快就要走了？

我是来拿东西的~!=D

Monday was a night with my Grandpa. He went: 'aye?' when he saw me at the door. Then he started laughing. Remember how I always say that my grandpa laughs when he sees me? yea. He is still doing that=D Haven seen him in a month. Gonna miss him for 3 months when Im not in Singapore. hee. Buy KFC for him the next time I visit him before I fly=D

Tuesday was family day out to the cinema for 赤壁! Tony Leung!! Takeshi Kaneshiro! haha.. I must comment that the show blends history into the modern context of humour. The whole Cinema was laughing. Other than the fact that it is splitted up into part 1 and part 2, I think the movie is good. haha.. Read up the basic history and go for it! Its really good. Im so going to watch part 2 when its up!

Yesterday was dance. haha. was at Kallang so so so early because I took a lift from a colleague. And then I walked to the dance studio from Kallang=) TC came to visit, which was really a surprise. haha.. when my friends knew that I walked from Kallang, they all thought that I was having a fever=p Its actually quite near. Just gotta know where to walk. Anyway, I concluded yesterday that I have bad direction sense. Almost got lost in the neighbourhood near the studio. Luckily I knew the block number=D Like: Singapore is so small. Who will get lost?!. Well. Apparently, me.

Side note: Its weird to be looking at little frogs in bags. Seriously.

How pretty is this? Very.

复杂

I have zero image in front of you and really don't see a point in having one. 好朋友.. so你中几了？=D I was so amused at what had happened that I just had to show the auntie your NRIC to prove and ascertain the fact that you are approaching 21. haha.. gotta be due to your honey words that cheated the aunties of their feelings. Thanks for choosing, thanks for doing everything on my behalf, thanks for drinks and thanks for coming when I needed help and company.
sigh. i have another dumb photo of you. but really. eh. I guess I should not spoil your image further=D
My 2nd off day of my internship and this is going to be the last one too.
9am. city hall. BK breakfast and loads of crap. Hope you like the card and the golden key. I mean, at least I tried doing something right? even if its not like very pretty. But of course, my photo on the card beautified everything=D *puke*
To Flyer. Why are we not reaching yet. Jacket. Warm.
Palms sweating. Cool. Singapore Flyer. Here I come! Well, it was just an over-imaginative mind. The whole structure is very stable. Scenaries. I guess everything will be alot prettier at sun set. Nothing mysterious at noon. All clear in a glance. Im really happy that we took 48 photos today. haha.. kids! NDP. Road block. damn. no bus=p cab down to dance class today. haven't cab for a long time sia. haha.. but well, I was late! what choice do i have. And the army guys on duty were really irresponisble eh. They saw us all waiting at the bus stop and no one came to tell us that there were no more buses until we asked.
Dance class was extended for one more week. I really don't think I counted wrongly. But yea. I guess I really don't mind one more week of it. Love company at the class if not i'll totally stone and not feel like dancing at all. It takes good mood yea. Glad. Michelle. Sue Chen. Pei Juan. Zhong yi. Ching Ching. Clarence. Kai Yang. Alvin. Daniel. Shawn. eh. yf? I think the saddest thing is when people lie to themselves. But to be totally honest is something I have not been able to do. ha. Sometimes, I really feel like asking my friends. Besides the Wei Ling who laughs, jokes, talks alot, when I'm quiet, will you know what I am thinking of? Is there anything beyond what is the obvious.

Sometimes

Sometimes, its good to have a good laugh.
Sometimes, its nice to hang out with friends.
Sometimes, it may be time to take a little rest.
Had a recent evening out with glad, miao and sue chen to esplanade for a concert. PA Talent eh.. Sound of Music. People can become quite nostalgic after that. haha.. it reminded me of my Primary school days, when they promote racial harmony, showcase ethnic dances, china town, little india, malay village.. they added in tap dance, umbrella dance, ballroom dance, ballet and some cupwheels and stuff. Many parts were rather funny. Bicycles and motorcycles on stage, little flying devils and white cloth used to depict roti prata. What I found weird, was myself actually. I was looking at weird stuff, like the shoes of the female lead, the shoulders of the male lead, how the dress of a girl got stepped on, how I worry that the female lead will trip over the beam of the swing, how I was looking into the darkness and not the spotlight, how I was looking all over the place for the live orchestra, how I noticed that the voice of the male lead was one octave higher than the female's, how I found my friend on stage by recognising his hair... Well, the only 2 parts that I think could have been better: the voice of the devil was not powerful and evil enough and that the standard dance of the male lead could have been better. His posture became a little weird at that part. Other than that, his body language was fantastic. Totally captivating. The little episode of romance was not very convincing though. I guess, its too innocent to be believeable.
The ambience at makan sutra was great. haha.. I love the nearness of the river, the cool wind blowing onto your face, the open air concept that allowed me to look into the sky.
有时，想着想着，难免向往。
有时，看着看着，难免伤感。
有时，闭上眼睛，距离却越长。
有时，伸出手，但不知该往何方。

Silliness Is In the Eye of the Executor

Sometimes I wonder, why is it that im the only one doing silly things continuously. Like im born to do all these. haha.. even my gor gor likes to say: 爸爸， 为什么你的女儿这样的？
okie. let me confess my doings first.
1. I knocked the phone receiver against my head=D
haha.. how is that possible? sometimes i marvel at the type of things I actually do. haha.. but this time round, its really not my fault la. I emphasize. NOT MY FAULT. its not even some important call that I was in a hurry to pick up. Its just my friend playing with the Intercom. wah. sacrifice my head because of that eh. Not worth it. I was distracted la. 'cause I was looking at him playing with the phone and I have no idea why I still picked up the phone. But anyway, I was picking up and looking at his phone and talking to him at the same time, asking him if he is damn free and then, 'KOK'!! Super duper loud can. haha.. and he had the heart to laugh so hard at me.
2. I was in the warehouse office and some one came to collect the goods. I wanted to call the upstairs office to get Jen to come down. BUT I couldnt remember the extension. Trying my luck, I pressed 111. AND...
'Hello, Mary arh'
"我是Mary的姐姐"
'HUH??'
Turned out that I called my Operations Manager by mistake. and NO. They are not siblings. haha.. super malu.
3. This is gladys' fault for making us laugh during dance. The dance instructor was like: 他们三个笑得很开心。来，让他们来分享到底什么这么好笑。Sue Chen very quickly siam to the side. Then glad followed suit. And I was the most lag one! Then the instructor said: 他们笑完之后，全部跑到旁边去。*PAISEH* And because I was in a trying-to-be-funny-mood. My conversation with the instructor became damn funny and embarrassing for me. *sigh* I should just try-not-to-be-funny.=D
Oh ya. almost forgot. I stepped my own toes during dance. haha.. Dance class has been so funny. I think I spent more energy laughing then dancing=D

A few days ago, a drum of acid spilled. You should have seen the fumes. I think anyone who is there would have like shortened their lives. But its still a pretty special experience. Went out with my supervisor to meet clients yesterday. haha.. sometimes I do wonder how come people engage in such cliche and surface conversation in the business world. haha.. but well, actually Im quite good at that as well=) Alot of work to be done. 27 more days to the end of the internship! Everything will go smoothly! hee.